hi Allies, first and foremost L&R. I deal with extreme anxiety and OCD which leads to a lot of social anxiety and depression. I love EZA and the community but have had to exist in it from afar due to these issues. I have wanted to force myself to speak up and be an active community member for months and months, and it saddens me that this post has to be the one that made that happen.
I chose to post in the forum, and under the Blogs forum specifically, very carefully and respectfully. I am unsure of the rules when it comes to something like this, and if it is in violation of the rules, I completely understand.
I do a lot of freelance graphic design work and 9/10 times am paid through PayPal. About a week ago my PayPal account was hacked, and since it's linked to my bank account, that was hacked as well. After many, many, many phone calls to both companies, I was able to at least regain access to both accounts, and at the very least both seemed to be secure again. the not so great thing was that I lost a considerable amount of money. I tried to not panic too much, thinking "ok, rent has been paid, other bills have been paid all before this happened. I have food...electricity...etc. things could always be worse."
On Wednesday I received a phone call from my landlord that my rent check had bounced. Checking my bank account I saw no sign either way of it bouncing or clearing. information was still missing on my account. I immediately called my landlord explaining what had been happening. I asked about working out any options for resolving this but ultimately the best he could do was give me a week, charging late fees every day from the 1st to when he gets the new check. cue panic attack. the best I could mumble out to him was I would keep him updated (still seeing if money is going to be returned to my accounts, but at this point admittedly seems unlikely) and that I would figure it out by the end of next week.
I have nowhere to turn. I have very little family and without getting too far into it, my mother passed away 2 years ago and I have never met my father. When I said at the start that it saddens me that this is the way I am finally speaking up in the EZA community, it's because I am in need of help.
If any ally out there can help in any way I would be so eternally grateful and thankful...I'm not sure how to even put it into words. if anyone can and wants to, feel free to PM me here and I can give my PayPal email and/or give any more information or context. I figure that is the best way to go about this.
This is starting to get pretty long, but I wanted to explain my situation as best I could. to be as honest as possible, I am really scared. the thought of what could happen if this doesn't get resolved and what could happen to me mental health wise is terrifying. I hate that this is my introduction to the community, but I do want to be more active and become friends with you all as best I can. at the very least if you've managed to read this far, thank you so much for listening. I'll end where I started with L&R.